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Once upon a time not so long ago all was not well in my tiny claustrophobic world!

In a nut shell, simply put, major life changing events caught me totally off guard and places me in a downward spiral. For a while there I thought I would never get out of it. Simply put, life threw me one curve ball after another. They came so rapidly unexpectedly fast and furious. Its like I was on a life support machine and some one suddenly pulls the plug on me. Like a nightmare, only it goes on even when you are awake. My world it seems came tumbling down pretty much like a stack of cards crashing. At least that’s how it was for awhile back then. I was disheartened, disappointed, confused, afraid and even felt defeated. I guess in retrospect, I was mostly angry. Angry at whom, what specifically I don’t know but I allowed and let anger totally consumed me.

Good thing.. I am stubborn and bless with a thick skin! I recall someone very dear to me said once” anger is the devil’s best friend” Sure… laugh away if you may but it is true. You see.. when you are angry your emotion takes control and the more angry you get the more blinded you become of any sight of the reality you are caught in and you just cant think right. Anger robs you of any sense of reason. Anger muddles everything so badly that you are not able to see any solution but mostly anger blinded you of a way out even when the way out are staring you right in the face!

A cliché as this statement may be, the thing is in life obstacles and road blocks need not be all that bad or necessarily ending disastrous all the time. Infect, one should be thank full that, the fact that you fall flat on your face from time to time and sometime blows after blows of one whammy after another with determination and perseverance with sheer grit and mostly God’s grace lets not forget that, you bite the bullet and hang on for your dear life. Sure you stumble and fall and wobble but faith yes faith is what makes the whole world of difference. Faith will get you to get up again. Faith gives you that last bit of will power and strength to brave it all. Sure you get up with great difficulties but what is important is, you pull yourself up together.

Without being overly mellow dramatic I ‘d sum up what I went through back then as my personal journey of rude awaking, life changing ride of emotional tsunami. For now the storm has simmer down and pass through it seems. Sure the road ahead is much clearer of debris leaving only bits and pieces and remnants of partially broken dreams, shattered what took years to build but I guess I hate to admit it, it’s just bruised ego mine that is, that need a lot of work on still. But you know what? Even with all that happened I’d still say I am most fortunate to have gone through and experience it.

The sky is clearer these days. Not so perfectly blue for you can still see rain clouds looming here and there. But you know what? It’s OK! That’s right… it’s OK!I think with faith the human spirit can be rock solid if we want it to be! You stumble, you fall. You pick yourself up again, dust your battered spirit which for the most part if you can be honest with yourself upon taking a closer look and examine is actually a bruised ego.

I take my leave for now and part with a personal message and only have this much to add. What ever obstacles, difficulties, and bumps you may be going through, take a breather STOP and have a conversation with yourself.

Tell yourself, I WILL NOT LET UNFAVORABLE CIRCUMSTANCES ROB ME OF MY SANITY, I WILL NOT SUCCUMB IN DEFEAT!

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FORTUNE FAVORS THE BRAVE *wink-wink*